Me, A Total Failure As A Teacher

Today is a sad day for me. Very much disheartened. Had been teaching for 20 over years, and had tried my best to be available for all students who need help or required a listening ear. But yet today someone wrote that I cannot be found when that person needed help.

Hey, I am not blaming that person who wrote that, but rather, I asked myself, "Had I failed as a teacher? Had I really been so unapproachable? Was I never around when help is needed?

What is the use of being a teacher, if I am not around to help my students? To me I had been a total failure. Though I had put up a great front in the class today, but deep within my heart, it was tearing, and I can write it here, that it was bleeding badly! 20 over years of teaching and I had failed in the basic duty of a teacher!!!! Can you imagine if you have a student who is on the verge of doing something stupid, like wanting to commit suicide and was looking for you for help and you are not around! I can't imagine the tragedy if it really happens. And who to be blame, IT'S ME!!!! Me, for being not available when help is required. Really do not know whether or how long before I can get out of this depression. Will stop writting here as my heart is too heavy.

Bye for today